How to be new
Do you remember in ‘i heart huckabees’ when the main character utters a statement that drops the psychologists in their tracks and it gives him time to get away from them? It’s something like – “I’m not who I thought i was”. The other day I uttered the following: “If you want to see something new – you have to go somewhere you have never been before”. This statement threw off my internal psychologist just long enough for me to have an epiphany. You see, I have always been attracted to the mystical,dark, and supernatural. My wife and I watched all 9 seasons of the x-files in 6 months. As a Christian, I have never let myself do the things like ‘warcraft’, ‘magic’, ‘d&d’, etc…, but I have always had that nagging interest in things like it. I want to see something bigger,older,wiser, and more dangerous than myself – i want to be scared into belief.
So, when this statement came to my mind – I realized that I may have to take a walk at midnight through the woods or ride the bus through a sketchy part of town to see what I have been wanting to see. If I don’t put myself in a different environment, then why the heck do I expect to see something new? Last night we played at the milestone, a dark sketchball club with an awesome manager. We saw something different, both in ourselves and the kids that were there. Some of the emotions that showed up in my heart were good and some were not. Not many of our friends showed up, we played really sloppy, and i backed the trailer into a telephone pole. It was awesome, it was new.
